Nicole Kidman opened up about her struggles following her divorce, her career and having children through almost every avenue available during a special appearance at the Women in the World Summit in London on Tuesday.
"I was running from my life at that time. I wasn't able to handle the reality of my life and as an actor, you have this wonderful thing where you can get lost in somebody else's life and become somebody else for a period of time," the star revealed when asked if the difficult time of her split from Tom unleashed creativity in her as their separation followed by roles in movies such as "Moulin Rouge" and "The Hours."
"I then embraced my own life and got myself together, it took a number of years," she added. "That culminated in winning an Oscar [but] I was the loneliest I've ever been. That was a very strange thing to have happened ... then I went, 'I need to really hone in on what I want as a woman and for my life.'"
At the moment, the actress said she is in an incredibly "fortunate, blessed place," which is undeniably because of her marriage to country singer Keith Urban and the pair's two kids, Too Fab informed.
"We got to know each other when we were married. We didn't know each other very well when we got married," Nicole stated during the Summit. "I wanted to have more children and that's happened for me. I was lucky, I got to have a child when I was 41. I then got to have a surrogate. I have two adopted children. I'm a mother who's experienced motherhood through many different avenues."
Nicole was then asked if there is a difference in mothering each one of her children. "There's no difference, because you love and the love is so profound," the star said in response. "Once you have that child you go, 'Ah, I'm willing to die for this person.' You see and you feel that, that changes everything."
Meanwhile, Daily Mail informed that 33-year-old actress said she begged Tom Cruise not to end their marriage, but he stormed out and she lost the baby they had recently conceived.
Nicole Kidman said the actor left her without notice and refused to deliberate the problems in their marriage or to have counselling.
